Monday, January 26, 2009

1.26.09

Recently I heard a talk by president Bednar on prayer. He said we should use prayer as a spiritual planning of our day. And our nightly prayers report back to him how it went. This sounded good to me so this morning I tried it. In between diapers and exercising and taping Darth Vaders gun back on his hand 5 times. I dropped to my knees in the hallway. (I can't ever remember morning prayers when I first wake up) I thanked heavenly father for a beautiful day that is sunny and snowy and for the chance to be a mom. I do love it. Then I told him my goals for the days. Exercise, breakfast, laundry ect. And I also prayed that I might get something out of scripture reading today and feel of the truthfulness. I sat at breakfast with Cache and decided to read while I ate breakfast. Mother's just can't help but double task. I wanted to read aloud to Cache, so I picked something exciting. 3rd Nephi 11. When Christ appears in resurrected form to the people living here in America. I thought this might keep his attention. Nothing about the actual story really brought me a lot of peace, but most of the questions in my head, the doubts I have been having and worries about family members, were lifted, nothing answered, but the doubt was gone, the worry was lightened and hope for them replaced it. As I read I just couldn't see how I could ever deny that this book wasn't a truthful record. Deep down inside it felt so right, nothing miraculous or overwhelming, but just right. I knew who I wanted to be to other people around me, and what was important in life. Honesty with myself. And I can honestly say that something inside me says this is right. I've felt this several times before in my life, but I always always forget, and then start to doubt. I know I will forget again and doubt again, so I needed to write it down. This peace is such a blessing. I hope you don't mind me sharing such a personal story.

Oh 3rd Nephi did keep Cache sitting at the table, but as I read, he interrupted twice and this is what he said:
cache:"sssspanish?"
me: "What?"
cache: "Jesus Christ is in spanish and it is very important?"
me: "What?"
cache: Jesus Christ is in spanish and it is Very important to me!"
me: "Jesus Christ is in spanish?"
cache: "yes"
me: "what does that mean?"
cache: "i no know" (meaning i dont' know)
me: "But it;s important to you?"
cache: "yep!"

2 minutes later while i'm reading i was interrupted again...

cache: "Who's on dis box mom!"( pointing to the wheaties cereal box)
me:" oh he was is a swimmer and won a race at the olympics"
cache: "No Brack Obama winned the race."

Life must be so confusing to a 3 year old. :) Or maybe i'm the one confused,
because he seems to know exactly what he means.




8 comments:

Cherisse said...

I love that Cache, he cracks me up. It will be funny to read this in years to come;)

Cherisse said...

P.S. I just looked at your old roommate's, Michelle, blog and they just bought a Toyota Tercel JUST LIKE THE TWO YELLOW ONES THAT WE HAD GROWING UP. I CAN'T STOP LAUGHING. I love it, they really were awesome cars and they NEVER stopped. Theirs is A TON better though because it isn't YELLOW!

sillynicolegirl said...

I love looking at your blog! Not only because you take AMAZING pictures but also because I love reading your stories. I need to be more creative with mine ;) I am coming this weekend to the wedding and I am so excited to see you and the kiddos. I know you will be super busy but do you think we can get together for like an hour? Let me know...

natsprat said...

Amie, thanks for sharing. Just what I needed to hear. I forget so many time and become discouraged I just need to remember that I have felt peace in my life, many times and I need to remember where that peace comes from.
I love Cache's sweet comments, he probably knows so much more than we do, if only we could just understand.

Sandy said...

Oh my gosh Amy I am in love with your blog. Just looking at it puts me to shame, can I just say what an amazing photographer you are and a talented mother. I am lucky to call you my friend. You teach me so much.

Jenni said...

What a beautiful story! Thank you for sharing it with us. I feel the same thing with scripture reading, I just feel like it brings me more peace and I have the spirit stronger with me during the day. I LOVE scripture reading!

And kids just say the cutest things, don't they!

Cherisse said...

Amie!! Where are you?? I haven't heard from you for awhile! Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking about you and wishing we could hang out:)

Dave & Colette said...

Amie, I'm waiting for more pictures of course. I don't think I could ever get enough. I miss you and the children so much. I miss Cache dashing through the house with that funny laugh, welcoming me home. I miss Naomi's little coos and spit up on my clothes. I miss hot cooked mills when I get home from work and talking to you. Thanks Devin for sharing your beautiful family. I'm so proud of both of you.
Love Mom